Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder...It's a Crock!

I am feeling so lonely. Ken has been gone about a week and a half. Sure, he calls. But, he is living a totally separate life. We don't share anything. He tells me what he's done, I tell him what I've done, no shared experiences. It doesn't make my heart grow fonder, it makes me sad, worried that he'll realize just what a mess I really am and how much easier it is without the hassle.

So, I turn to my kids. but they are all out trying to squeak in as many minutes with friends as possible before we leave. Most of the time, I'm just here alone with the dogs. I even miss going in to work. Absence not making my heart fonder, making me want to tie them up and never let them out of the house. That can't be healthy.

Truthfully, I'm even mad at my mom for leaving me here alone. She always had a sense to know when to call, and could hear in my voice all of my needs. What about dad....that's good question. No one really knows what about dad. He is learning how to pursue new relationships, while holding on to the old ones. Not sure he's succeeding as of yet, but I'm hopeful.

So there you have it. I am absent from Ken, the kids, my mom, my dad. Not feeling terribly fond of anyone right now. Missing them all very much, but it makes my heart sad.

I should write a pilot for a new reality show for Discovery "Emotional Myth Busters"